There are two Blogmeets that I'm planning on attending in the next couple of weeks – The 12th of May, which I can definitely attend, and the 8th of May, which I want to go to, but will need some annual leave for that evening.
I'm actually quite a shy person. When I'm wearing my uniform I think nothing of ordering police, firemen and the public around if it is for the best interests of my patient. In my uniform I can strip people naked and stick needles in them and they are happy for me to do this. I don't get embarrassed at nudity, bad behaviour or anything else that would make your normal person blush. I tell off-colour jokes, walk into dangerous situations and shout at idiot drivers.
But without the uniform I'm a shy little wallflower. I hate being in a large group of people I don't know, I find it hard to introduce myself, or maintain a conversation. I worry that I look like an idiot, and I'd rather wrestle a knife wielding manic than try and “chat up” someone. (Not that I'm on the pull or anything)
So these Blogmeets will make me very nervous – Full of people who seem to know each other, I know I'll feel like an outsider. Most of the folks who read this Blog are other Medics – just that they are all in America…
Then there are the problems of etiquette…
What if I've never heard of your Blog?
What if I don't recognise you from the picture of you on your Blog that I do read?
What if I get a case of Hero Worship?
What if no-one has ever heard of my Blog, will they think me a “pretender”?
What is the dress code for these things?
Will there be enough alcohol to give me “Dutch courage”?
Will I even be able to recognise other people as Bloggers?
What if they have read this Blog, and think my posts/grammar/attitude is/are crap?
Will my breath smell?
What if I can't make good on my promise of assassinating other, better authors?
As you can see this has the possibility of leaving me a quiver wreck in the corner – which would be a bad thing…
Any advice for a wallflower?
All I know is that I can't wear my uniform there, as I'd get the sack wearing it outside of work.